depressedwhale

Last night, I dreamt of cheating on my smoke-free life. I took a puff of cigarette with some close friends and felt very bad about it. I took another puff again to kill that bad feeling and I smoked the whole cigarette. I, then bought a whole pack of cigarettes to save those for friends. I had a terrible feeling that maybe I was getting back to the dark life. It was until the very next day I found out that I had smoked over 30 cigarettes the previous night and I woke up craving for more. I went into the deep state of denial and psychosis. I could see and feel the failure spinning around me; like a giant bloody monster trying to stab me. I kne